I said that the last journal will last until december. But guess i was wrong.

Just wanted to get some things off my chest. I will probably delete this in 2-3 days.

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I'm currently undergoing a few personal stresses at the moment. Most of which are minor, but i have one very MAJOR one which is like icing on the cake if you like.

Most of my minor ones matter very little, with the exception that i have no time at all to see my girlfriend, which is very unfair on her as whenever we do see each other, we're never alone together and I have the subconcious need to just relax and have friendly times with my friends instead of paying any attention to her. Which is unfair.

But unfortunately, my major one, is causing me a lot more heartache than it did the first time it happened.
My mum has just had her first lot of Chemotherapy today, after 2 years since she last faught off cancer.

I've been aware that this was going to happen for the past 2 or 3 weeks now, but after yesterday and her having to go in for 2-4 days in the hospital i've been really worried. First time around she was allways at home and we got to live normally, but now she's going to be away for days at a time for the next few months which really upsets me. And i'm trying not to think about febuary/march time, when she has to spend an entire MONTH in Leeds hospital.

I'm trying really hard to keep up to scratch with my 'very early days' college work, but i can hardly expect this not to have an effect on it >.< Seens as every time i'm not destracting myself with talking to friends im thinking about it.

Mum will be fine though, the cancer she has is hardly as life threatening as Lung cancer or other forms of it, which was exactly the same last time, but i just guess that this time i have so many more 'what ifs' running about my mind >.<

GAH T.T

*logs into msn* I'll get SOME media work done at some point tonight TT.TT

FYI Jack atlas chose this skin.