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Journal Entry: Wed Nov 11, 2009, 10:28 AM
So i lied. Shoot me.


I said that the last journal will last until december. But guess i was wrong.

Just wanted to get some things off my chest. I will probably delete this in 2-3 days.

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I'm currently undergoing a few personal stresses at the moment. Most of which are minor, but i have one very MAJOR one which is like icing on the cake if you like.

Most of my minor ones matter very little, with the exception that i have no time at all to see my girlfriend, which is very unfair on her as whenever we do see each other, we're never alone together and I have the subconcious need to just relax and have friendly times with my friends instead of paying any attention to her. Which is unfair.

But unfortunately, my major one, is causing me a lot more heartache than it did the first time it happened.
My mum has just had her first lot of Chemotherapy today, after 2 years since she last faught off cancer.

I've been aware that this was going to happen for the past 2 or 3 weeks now, but after yesterday and her having to go in for 2-4 days in the hospital i've been really worried. First time around she was allways at home and we got to live normally, but now she's going to be away for days at a time for the next few months which really upsets me. And i'm trying not to think about febuary/march time, when she has to spend an entire MONTH in Leeds hospital.

I'm trying really hard to keep up to scratch with my 'very early days' college work, but i can hardly expect this not to have an effect on it >.< Seens as every time i'm not destracting myself with talking to friends im thinking about it.

Mum will be fine though, the cancer she has is hardly as life threatening as Lung cancer or other forms of it, which was exactly the same last time, but i just guess that this time i have so many more 'what ifs' running about my mind >.<

GAH T.T

*logs into msn* I'll get SOME media work done at some point tonight TT.TT

FYI Jack atlas chose this skin.

  • Mood: Distressed

This should last me until December

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 10, 2009, 4:21 PM


Noticed how my journals get further apart at this time of year??
Thats cause my life IS ACTUALLY BORING at times. 83

Expo Aftermath

I'm STILL kicking away the expo blues, something tells me these will last another 3 or 4 months XD Then i'll just be worrying about May!

I'm in love with the Yugioh group! We've actually managed to stay in contact sinse expo, and msn is just as much fun when they're around! I started watching YGO 5Ds a bit back, and im now on episode 25, Aki scares me o.o . But yeah, its not AS bad as people make it out to be. At least i dont cringe every 5 minutes due to friendship speeches and extra extra long card games (longest so far in 5ds was 2 episodes).

Yeah. I'm being adventerous and taking 4 outfits now.

Bunny Bakura
Jack atlas (possibly Team satisfaction to save on the costs)
Black Mesa
Even

New cosplays

I've been REAL hazy about my upcoming plans of late, because every time i decide i go against them >.<.
But as far as i know AT THE MOMENT I HAVE TO MAKE:

Walter - Hellsing - This is partially finished and just needs to get the wig to arrive, I'm taking it to LTB
Seimei - Loveless - Working with what i already have, like Ritsuka, luckily this is a costume i can do that with. 83 I'll need BLACKER ears and tail though... unless im lazy. In time for Secret santa shopping with Yorcos.
Jack Atlas - Yugioh 5Ds - I want to buy the FULL outfit, i already have a wig on the way, cause i want to style it ASAP. In time for May Expo, but i want it done before, cause it is WIN.
Black Mesa - Portal Life - Self designed.... ish. The concept is Based of :iconneko-gabby:'s previous designs for him, He's the computer system in Half Life, very similar to GLaDOS in Portal. We thought is Aperture got GLaDOS then Black Mesa got... well 'Mesa'. In time for May Expo XD
Bunny Bakura - My WILD imagination/ Yugioh - Crack. Simple as.

Cons, Meet ups, ETC.

Leeds Thought Bubble:
Its the Leeds comic convention in a couple of weeks and OFCOURE IM GOING TO IT!
It would be irrisponsible of me to miss out 83.
I'm taking Walter as my co-meet-runners are attending as Hellsing characters too! 83 WE HAVE THE FULL TEAM! 8D Minus Pip. Which is a shame...>.<

Secret Santa:
Not ENTIRELY Planned yet. But i know its going to be fun ^^. The leeds crew and the york crew are getting together for a big secret santa! 8D

My Cosplay birthday:
This is so in advance you could CRY! D8
As most/some of you may know, my birthday is January the 1st, 1993. Making me a grand total of 17 years of age when the clock strikes 2010 8D. So for my cosplay friends i am throwing a biiig Cosplay New years eve party!
Not fully planned yet, but i know we're going to roam around town on New years eve before all getting the bus to mine. If you're interested in coming Poke me with a comment here!

WORK D8

I've been offered an Audition OFFICIALLY 8D
I'm going to be applying for a seasonal actors role hopefully with the ability to work cashier over term time.
I still need to explain to kate about how that'll work, but i cant really do that until i know i've passed the audition. 83
This does mean i'll have all but NO TIME over the winter holidays though TT.TT

..........









Does anyone know if you can get Anime Advent Calendars? XD

  • Mood: Excited

EXPOOP and other Otaku based Faggotry.

Sat Oct 31, 2009, 7:53 AM
Well HAI thar!
Its almost 1 week since it and i’m only just getting around to writing my post expo journal XD
But HEY its better than some people >.> (I enjoy reading post expo journals... and SOME people haven’t got theirs up yet)
SO! Instead of doing my Brecht essay for Theatre studies like i’m supposed to be doing now! (is going to fail her college lol NOT) I’m going to write my post expo journal!

Expoop was win... BELEIVE IT
I’m so glad i decided to go as Bakura both days, the yugioh troop were awesome! <3

Saturday
I got up at about 5.00 on Saturday morning, unearthly hours for someone like me DX IVE NEVER SEEN A CLOCK AT THAT TIME BEFORE!!! ....(except from at Lu’s... when me, sean, emi and Liz were only JUST going to bed XD yay for shinra drinking nights!) I got into my bakura costume... and guess what! I found out i only had 3 rolls worth of duct tape left for Sunday DXX. Then after shaking everyone else in the house awake we set off for Doncaster train station. (its cheaper there)

We arrived and skipped past the expo to drop off our bags at the PTI. I spotted a marik on the underground on the way to expo XD they were like “OMG BAKURA!” And Link gave me a hug >3<.
Finally after getting my brother to change into his team fortress gear (he was dressed as the soldier), we jumped back onto the DLR to get to expo. We’re lazy. We didn’t walk. Once we arrived we instantly spotted the Team Fortress guys, so i ditched robin with them XD And ran away. Many people stopped me in the hallway to take pictures, i met the previously Obnoxious Celtic guardian, who threw a book at me TT.TT I’I’ll but as they headed into the actual expo i needed to get a ticket. So i queued up.
THE QUEUE WAS MASSAVE D8
But i got to jump it a bit, when some bakura fangirls decided they wanted me to stand with them XD
After 2 hours of queue DX I went inside, there was much rushing about looking for an Ichigo plushie for one of the girls before we came across Jaden, Yuseii, Marik and another Bakura under the GIANT 5Ds Sign DD8. We hung around there for a LONG while XD before moving around.
I didn’t buy anything that day and just hung about.
We went up to the bridge afterwards to have a photoshoot, Robin hoped i would spazz a little like last year when we went past the Demyx time crew in their Halloween town photoshoot. But i didn’t XD. (I’ve noticed they have started doing a lot of LK quotes lately in their journals lol SUSPICIOUSSSSSS) Jaden FELL OVER!!! XD MUCH LOLS
There was also a young child who had the Yami Yugi dress up kit! 83 HE SAW ME IN THE LINE AND WAS TERRIFIED BY ME DX

That evening after waiting an hour and a half for mum and dad to get back to the hotel so i could get changed, I went over to room 608 where i met Emi and crew XD
I made lots of friend amongst them and my vexen muse was awakened XD

Sunday
Much of the same.
I was amazed at how well my Season 1 Bakura cosplay was. I got photos taken by the cosplay corner (which you have seen) and this year i didn’t look a spazz in them... i might upload my vexen ones from last year DX maybe.
I hung around with the same guys, we had our GIANT COSPLAY DUEL!! Of which i got summoned as the trap card “Many bakuras” by bakura with 3 other bakuras. But then i was sacrificed by my Ryou DX DAMN YOU!
We stayed at expo until the ENTIRE BUILDING closed.
I baught things that day, for a change. XD
My loot: A duel disk system!!! (tm), Lucky star artbook (turns out the DVD in there is the full series, but no subtitles, so just Japanese XD), Axis Powers Hetalia YAOI! 8D (i’m going to take this to college to show gabby and maybe Emily) England x America (anyone seen the latest episode? ITS TOO CUTE!!! D8). And a SHITLOAD of sweets. XD Not to mention 3 books from the £1 manga store for next Itadakimasu!
Then i went back to emi’s room again, and we met Marluxia the GRACEFUL ASSASSIN XD Further tormenting of my Vexen muse began.
Quotes
“HEY JADEN! YOURE ON MONEY!”
“Awwweh! You cant resist the Yusei kitty eyes!”
“FAGOTRY~~~! >83”
“OH OH EVEN >3”
“WRONG. IM NOT WEARING ANY UNDERWEAR Ohohohoh~~”
“I think Braig lost his eye when he was asked to do an experiment and came back with a mento and a bottle of coke.” (my own... BUT THATS EPIC WIN)

Halloween
So tonight i plan on being Zombie/mutilated bakura for lols and to scare young kids. I’ll get pictures up i swear!!!

Yorcos
Another meet up tomorrow! :iconlil-mizz-emo: Is cosplaying marik. And i will be kura! XD
Bet she steals my leather coat DX

May Expo 2010
So we have the hotel room booked and all of the money for travel ETC sorted. We’re officially SORTED XD
Well we need to save the money evidently TT.TT
But its only like £50 each so far for us to get there and back and stay at the hotel. D8 WELL BE FINE!

I’m taking these two by prior arrangement:
Saturday: Bunny Bakura.
Sunday: Black Mesa (Will be entered into a masquerade for a small Portal/Halflife skit along with :iconneko-gabby: as glados)

Look forward to seeing everyone there!! D8

  • Mood: Excited

FUCK YEAH!

Tue Oct 27, 2009, 2:54 PM
I already have a room booked for may >3
Totally got it cheaply.
Totally got 4 beds.
Totally gonna get 6 people in there.
Totally epic.
TOTALLY AT THE PTI!

1::iconpopsimgirl:
2::iconneko-gabby:
3::iconhotaru-666:
4::iconconcentricalx:
5: Matt. Just matt. XD
6::iconannniel:????

>3

I will update october expo later

  • Mood: Speechless

Fun with Computers

Thu Oct 22, 2009, 2:26 PM
Ahhhh! Exciting days ahead you guys!

Listening to: The device has been modified - Portal (AMAZING SONG)

Halloween @ LoungeOn1

Tomorrow Lounge On 1 at York College is holding a halloween kinda party thing, so me and gabby are going in our gothicy clothing and im going to be wearing some form of a wound... i'm thinking neck wound.

8D

It sounds as though its going to be fun even though i dont want to be picked on for anything DX

Expo in 1 DAY! - The Plans

DDDD8 1 DAYYYY!

I cant sit still!

Anyway, this is how things should be running:
On Saturday i will be waking up at 4 am in the morning to get into Bakura, and putting make up etc on. That will take me about an hour before i finally kick everyone out of their own beds and chuck the bags in the car. We should be setting off at 5.50 to get to doncaster and on the train for 6.50. Then once at london we'll be making a mad dash through many underground stations to get to the Excel Building. At that point hopefully i'll be able to ditch my bag with the 'rents and go off to the Expo... but the likelyhood is that i'll go with them to the PTI first and grab a key for later.
After that, once i arrive and have got through the doors to expo, i'll spend a good 30mins looking around and seeing whats there before deciding what i want to waste some money on.
[Enter in much meeting up with people and the soforth here]
Then at 5pm I will be heading outside where i will meet up with whoever from the Yugioh group meets up for a photoshoot on the bridge. Hopefully it will be dark by then! 8D
Then at 6pm, the night dueling will start and i'll be forced to bring out my monsters... then be shunned for the fact that my deck is made up of almost entirely ILLEGAL cards >.<
Some time after that i'll give :iconladywhitetiger: an angry buzz on the phone and ask what PTI room she's in to gatecrash. 8D

.....

Somepoint along the way, i'll ditch my brother.

And repeat for sunday! 8D

  • Mood: Speechless

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